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Birthdays

Birthdays. 

The day we are born. We get older and wiser each year. What's so special about this day? It's just another day. But here is where everything about you reveals. Should I start? How was it for me? 


Since childhood I was never really interested in birthdays because I don't have friends to celebrate with me. I didn't mean to start my writing with a sad story. Just read along. It is supposed to be exciting, fun and happy. But I had this question with myself, why do we celebrate birthdays? Why is it important? What's in it? Since childhood I have had one wish that is to be healthy. And my wish never happened. Each year I'm inside the same body with the same illness. And my health just gets worse each year. So what's the point of wishing on my birthday? 


Until I was twenty three years old, I was fighting to accept myself. I didn't like myself or whatever I'm thinking. I wanted to be ordinary. I wanted to be normal. I wanted to think ordinary. But my brain is too smart, it keeps thinking and asking questions that have no answers. Why can't my brain be quiet and be like how others are. 


I keep writing and reading to find my answers. And in one of the many books I read, it says "You can be you, and in being you, everything is special". Wow, something just rested within me. I can be me? I can just be me? Really? I thought it's wrong to be me. Thank God, I read that book. My thoughts changed. Even though I still have not answered many of the questions that appeared in my brain but it was easy to be me. 


It was my 24th birthday. I understand the point of me. And birthdays are important. Yes, you heard right. This is the day where you will appreciate and love the presence of others. It's about celebrating you together with others. After every birthday, I always feel so thankful and grateful for my family, friends and everyone that makes my day more colourful. 


Birthdays are to make people come together to celebrate the best of you. And you have lived for that many yearsšŸ˜‚ I realized the people around me have so much love in me and I don't know how to return back. Trust me, when anyone gives a small gift you will jump over the moon because I do that. Even now when I think about my 26th birthday celebration, tears roll from my eyes. It's beautiful, my family and friends are equally amazing. 



I wonder what did I do to celebrate my birthday. I'm just ordinary. Then I get it, it's their love as a family, a friend, a teacher. It's not about me, it's about them. They love. Such kindness shown. I'm more than delighted to have such beautiful family and friends with me. Is birthday important? I don't know but it surely shows me their love. And that's enough for meā¤

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