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Another day with myself

My story is very ordinary. I look normal from outside. But if you look me longer you will see my flaws. It's quite noticeable. Yes, I feel weird with normal people around me. Even to type this was hard. My muscles move involuntarily. It is hard to control my muscles. I have been living with this condition for 15 years. For past two years, it becomes worse. There is no cure for this condition. It's called dystonia. I learned to manage it. Sometimes I almost give up, but never really. I almost died twice because of this condition but God bless nothing really happened. It's such a struggle to be in this body. The real struggle is when your body muscle never listens to you. My muscles can't be controlled. It moves crazily.

Now, if you want to be my friend then let's have an amazing friendship. You can share your knowledge, insight with me. I want to grow too. I love to get inspired and motivated.


The thing about people is that:
- They judge me by my physical appearance
- Many don't understand how I work with this body
- I always need someone to be with me cause anything can happen to me.
- Some laugh at my physical state
- Some abuse me with their words


But all these things never really bother me (sometimes). 

I learned to be happy and bless with things I have. I'm happy to have so many beautiful and amazing souls around me to motivate me all day long. Yes, there are many unlucky people who have terrible times than me. I want to stand for them. To tell them that they are beautiful on their way. And I'm here for them. I want to tell them that they matter. I want to share my love, happiness, and joy of this life. 
Life is full of mystery that comes with gifts. We just need to open the right one.
I have so much to say. Till then... Take care.

Much love,
Nisshaa ❤
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  1. Unknown18 April 2018 at 10:29

    Nobody is perfect and god never created in such way.. Ppl may smile but they are not dare as you to share their flaws.. This is you.. Be yourself and happy as always as how u are.. We are always there for you..

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    1. Nisshaa Andy10 May 2018 at 00:37

      Aww Naga... thank you for saying this. Thank you for being ammazing friend in my life and also for non judging me. <3

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