Nisshaa's Life

I had great fear in raising my hands in air. Cause when I raise my hand, I will get major cramp followed by tremendous pain and I fall on ground. So, I never lift up my hand.  Well, my coach helped me to break the fear. First day of hand workout, I died. Cause I had to lift my hands and booooooom I got my cramp in my shoulder and the pain was unbearable. I didn't want to workout again!  But you know the force from everyone, I had to go to gym again☹️. I workout very slowly. It been 6 months of working out. Now I could raise my hand so high with weight each side! This exercise are very simple yet effective. It was hard at first but eventually I got better at it. Exercise is so important for me now. It helped me heal.  If I can, you can too. Start slow. You will see the changes in your body. Don't give up. Don't be shy to walk into the gym and workout. I shake a lot while working out but now I see the result. Go for it 💪❤🌻

It took me more than 4 months to walk properly without falling.  Yeay! 💪💪 I'm carrying 3kg each side. ✌ It took all my energy and focus to get here and raise to even better. A word to remember, EFFORT. Effort. I got to put my 100% of effort to grow everyday. Anything in life needs effort. Without it, one can fail. Once I thought I can never grow with my life as my body was in enormous pain. But I work slowly, keeping up with life. I count my walking steps. Now, I walk so much better. To be honest I'm slow learner, my brain interpret things slowly. It's because of my daily medication. I write, walk, eat, think slow. Many get frustrated as I do everything slowly. Well, it's better to be slow than not doing anything at all right! Every small step counts! Before joining gym I thought I can't do anything like how the big man are doing but I am so WRONG! I can do too ❤ PS: I'm working out to be physically strong even though my body screams not to do it. ...

Are you important to yourself? Yes, you are. You are important to yourself. Your problem, family, job, money, relationship is not important than you. You are important in your life. Without you nothing can be done. You are so distracted that you didn't see yourself. Even me. Let me remind you, you are so important. This statement never hit me until I fall really sick. The moment of alter pain and disable, that's when I realized how important I'm (my body and mind) is to me. I didn't care about my body, I didn't give enough nutrients, I didn't study about my diagnosis, I was in the world of distraction. I didn't take care and give attention to myself. I thought medicine is enough for my body to heal. I WAS WRONG. Medication only is not enough for my body. I wish my doctors tell me if I workout/exercise I will get better. Or take enough nutrients. No, they didn't say anything like that. They only say "Take this medicine you will be ...

The yellow line is the most painful area in my body Without exercising my body gets weaker. I tend to fall more sick. My muscles can't support my body to stand. So, I have no excuse not to exercise.  This exercise helps to relieve the pain in my back shoulder. My God, that relieve....Damn I love it. It is hard for me, as I have involuntary muscle movements but with deep breathing and focus, I able to do it. I was finding for this kind of exercises for long time and boom I learned it!! So I wanna share this for those who have pain in upper shoulder. The yellow lines are the muscles that I needed to stretch. Also it was the most painful muscles. This exercise helps me to relieve the pain. The pain on my upper shoulder already healed two months ago. Only now I'm sharing this as it worked for me. Again this is my exercise for my body. You need to consult physiotherapist / doctor or anyone who have vast knowledge. You might need different exercise for your body. ...

Walking in the park everyday heals my body It been a month I ever last updated my page. It was a process of healing. My body was healing. I was getting better. I learned so much about my body. I learned in hard way. (still learning) My epilepsy is a thought created disease. Whenever I'm going through depression I will have my epilepsy. It took so long for me to discover about my epilepsy type. Some patient are not aware of epilepsy, they just get it. Unlike me. I know when it is coming. I'm so glad that I found out this. I have to be aware of my emotions. I can't simply be depressed about anything, my body gets weaker if I do. I have to throw away all my depression. I been walking early morning for past a month. I feel so good and healthier after walking. I have decided to walk every morning. I walk for 20 minutes. It increases my stamina. It takes away my depression. I feel so fresh and happy after walking in the morning. Morning breeze calms my body. ...

Look at that face! I never really had a good make up day but this is really too good! And that make up was by myself. My hand muscles didn't support me to put on my make up. My entire body was painful after applying make up. And I have to use both of my hands to apply make up. I know you guys will be thinking "why the hell I put my make up?!"  Applying make up is a skill.  It needs a lot of practice and patience.  It is never easy for me but I am learning slowly. I'm was inspired by @dystonia_makeup_warrior. I thought I can't apply make up on own but after following her Insta page, I learned I can too. Thank you for sharing your make up skills. A huge thank you love! ❤Having dystonia is painful but being my own make up artist is great! It was great learning to apply make up on my own. I guess practice makes perfect. Done make up by myself

Life is beautiful, don't miss it! Happiness is a beautiful word. It is easy to fall in depression /sadness. So, easy. But I learned from my tribe to be happy no matter what happens. Even in the last moment of breath, my friends were making jokes about death. Blessed to have them.  I don't know who teach us about sadness yet we learned. Do you know that when we are happy, it helps the body function properly. There are a lot of proof regarding this matter. The more sad you are, the more negative energy the body releases. You get sick more often.  My body itself is a proof of happiness. The more happy and positive I'm, the more healthier I'm. Going back to Mother Nature helps a lot to heal myself. Yes, I am still taking my medicine everyday but being happy improves my health.  *Important note* It's okay to fall million times, but remember to stand proudly. Or whatever way to raise again. Keep going. Hustle harder. It's okay to start from beg...

   With enormous bless, I achieved. I'm one of those who thought I can't achieve it. I prove it wrong. I achieved with tons of love behind me. Everyone is capable. It is matter of determination, love and support. My family's love was significance. Almost everyone I meet in my life played great role in my life. From the security guard who keep asking me if I'm okay, to random people I met in train (we talk so much about life and they just pour their love into me).    It's easy to give up. Especially me. I usually have tremendous pain in my body after going to university and cry every night. My parents were there to give medicine at 3.00am. They were tired too but never once complained. They wanted me to cure and that's my wish too. There were days I thought I going to die, but god bless I'm alive.    Well I learned to manage my condition. Even though it's hard I learned and still learning. I appreciate that everyday I able to breath and meet a new day. ...

My thesis was done! A throwback to last year August 1 Sorry for the late update. This was last year August 1. HERE YOU GO! I'm done with my thesis! I will be graduating next year! YESSSSSS I'm done! I'm so proud of myself because my body didn't give cooperation. I had to fight with my body to complete my degree and my thesis. NOW IT'S COMPLETE. LET'S CELEBRATE THIS! NEVER GIVE UP IS MY MANTRA! MY HUGE THANK YOU FOR: ❤My mum, dad, and my sisters and entire family including my guru for their continuous support. They were running back and forth to hospitals. ❤My favorite doctor, Dr. Tim (She believed in me and she was like a sister). ❤ My supportive and loving friends (I can't mention their names cause the list is way too long), without them I can't finish it. ❤ All my lecturers and my mentor (Mr. Jay). Mr. Gopal really cared about my health. He made everything possible to achieve. His continuous support always there for ...

What's your New Year Resolution?  I personally never cared about resolution. I celebrate New Year but I don't get the idea of the New Year. Some really have goals to achieve and that's great. As for me being alive and my body functions properly are the biggest resolution every day. I do have goals and dreams and I'm working slowly towards it. It's very easy to give up our goals. It's really devastating to see anyone who has dreams and goals give up just like that. I'm one of them. When my body doesn't give any cooperation while I'm doing my favorite activity, I give up. I give up so easily.  But now I survived that pain, tells me that I can achieve my goals no matter what happens. Even though my body hurts wherever I read books, while using the phone, sitting, standing or even walking, I keep reminding myself to move ahead and don't stop the journey.  I choose to have fun, laugh and be happy. Giving up or even being sad is not m...