Nisshaa's Life

Look at that face! I never really had a good make up day but this is really too good! And that make up was by myself. My hand muscles didn't support me to put on my make up. My entire body was painful after applying make up. And I have to use both of my hands to apply make up. I know you guys will be thinking "why the hell I put my make up?!"  Applying make up is a skill.  It needs a lot of practice and patience.  It is never easy for me but I am learning slowly. I'm was inspired by @dystonia_makeup_warrior. I thought I can't apply make up on own but after following her Insta page, I learned I can too. Thank you for sharing your make up skills. A huge thank you love! ❤Having dystonia is painful but being my own make up artist is great! It was great learning to apply make up on my own. I guess practice makes perfect. Done make up by myself

Life is beautiful, don't miss it! Happiness is a beautiful word. It is easy to fall in depression /sadness. So, easy. But I learned from my tribe to be happy no matter what happens. Even in the last moment of breath, my friends were making jokes about death. Blessed to have them.  I don't know who teach us about sadness yet we learned. Do you know that when we are happy, it helps the body function properly. There are a lot of proof regarding this matter. The more sad you are, the more negative energy the body releases. You get sick more often.  My body itself is a proof of happiness. The more happy and positive I'm, the more healthier I'm. Going back to Mother Nature helps a lot to heal myself. Yes, I am still taking my medicine everyday but being happy improves my health.  *Important note* It's okay to fall million times, but remember to stand proudly. Or whatever way to raise again. Keep going. Hustle harder. It's okay to start from beg...

   With enormous bless, I achieved. I'm one of those who thought I can't achieve it. I prove it wrong. I achieved with tons of love behind me. Everyone is capable. It is matter of determination, love and support. My family's love was significance. Almost everyone I meet in my life played great role in my life. From the security guard who keep asking me if I'm okay, to random people I met in train (we talk so much about life and they just pour their love into me).    It's easy to give up. Especially me. I usually have tremendous pain in my body after going to university and cry every night. My parents were there to give medicine at 3.00am. They were tired too but never once complained. They wanted me to cure and that's my wish too. There were days I thought I going to die, but god bless I'm alive.    Well I learned to manage my condition. Even though it's hard I learned and still learning. I appreciate that everyday I able to breath and meet a new day. ...

My thesis was done! A throwback to last year August 1 Sorry for the late update. This was last year August 1. HERE YOU GO! I'm done with my thesis! I will be graduating next year! YESSSSSS I'm done! I'm so proud of myself because my body didn't give cooperation. I had to fight with my body to complete my degree and my thesis. NOW IT'S COMPLETE. LET'S CELEBRATE THIS! NEVER GIVE UP IS MY MANTRA! MY HUGE THANK YOU FOR: ❤My mum, dad, and my sisters and entire family including my guru for their continuous support. They were running back and forth to hospitals. ❤My favorite doctor, Dr. Tim (She believed in me and she was like a sister). ❤ My supportive and loving friends (I can't mention their names cause the list is way too long), without them I can't finish it. ❤ All my lecturers and my mentor (Mr. Jay). Mr. Gopal really cared about my health. He made everything possible to achieve. His continuous support always there for ...

What's your New Year Resolution?  I personally never cared about resolution. I celebrate New Year but I don't get the idea of the New Year. Some really have goals to achieve and that's great. As for me being alive and my body functions properly are the biggest resolution every day. I do have goals and dreams and I'm working slowly towards it. It's very easy to give up our goals. It's really devastating to see anyone who has dreams and goals give up just like that. I'm one of them. When my body doesn't give any cooperation while I'm doing my favorite activity, I give up. I give up so easily.  But now I survived that pain, tells me that I can achieve my goals no matter what happens. Even though my body hurts wherever I read books, while using the phone, sitting, standing or even walking, I keep reminding myself to move ahead and don't stop the journey.  I choose to have fun, laugh and be happy. Giving up or even being sad is not m...

Behind the picture. It took great strength and effort to fight against my body and mind. I had re-learn to walk from the beginning. ▪ So many people are involved to gain back my health and to walk. I'm lucky to have beautiful people with me. My parents who literally tried everything to help me to relief the pain I have on my left shoulder. I can be so emotional thinking how much everyone helped me to walk. ▪ We tried from acupuncture, physiotherapy, chiropractic, Ayurvedic massage, Botox and etc for past three weeks. I guess everything helped me to walk. I'm overwhelmed by everyone. ▪ My best friend who trained me to walk. I fall million times and with enormous patience, we did it. Every afternoon I go to park with my parents, sisters and friends to walk. Trust me the pain on my left shoulder  I can't explain the pain. ▪ However, I overcome it. God bless. I'm so thankful for everything. Everyone shown their unconditional love and I can't thank enough. ...

Stop reading! Just stop. Breathe deeply first. Look at you. Now, slowly breath in and out and read it. It been traumatic, harrowing and aching week. Travelling long journey in car effected my body tremendously. Travelling long hours without stretching my legs, arms and body given fearsome experience. I had tons of fun during Diwali and I treasure every moment of it. Unfortunately, everything ends when I can’t walk and sit at all! The pain was unimaginable and I thought that was my last moment. My dystonia become severe. I would not manage it. I had to constantly fight. I almost give up. I know I have to fight my pain. When I didn’t know how to get rid of my pain, my family, friends stood up. I was bedridden for three days. Yes, I could not believe too. I really have to thank my family (From my parents, grandparents, uncle, aunt, cousins, friends, EVERYONE) They did everything to make me feel better. Until now I am depending on them. Had to. There is a constant battle and war ...