Nisshaa's Life

Alone. That word effects most people. Even me. It was a great war inside me. I would not accept that I'm alone in my life. But it was the bitter sweet truth. Here is the difference between aloneness and loneliness.  . Loneliness is feeling lack, feeling of missing something, a pain, a depression, a need, an incompleteness, an absence. . Aloneness is feeling fullness, presence, aliveness, a joy of being, overflowing love. Nobody is needed, you are enough. . When I get to know the difference between these words, something hit me so badly. Aloneness means being complete with myself. And I didn't know that for a long time. . *Flashback* I used to be alone at my secondary school. Eat alone, study alone. I don't know why even I was alone but yeah. I used to cry because I have no friends at school. But I didn't know that I'm actually happy and complete with myself. Being a teenager is difficult. Can't think wisely.  . . Then when I entered universit...

Hello everyone, you must be wondering why did I even start writing. Well, the answer is my doctor. She is my favorite doctor, Dr. Tim. She always encourages me to things that I never thought off doing. Yes, I love writing and she asked me to share my story through writing. I always have messy, wondering mind. My mind is really a monster. When I say don't think of sad things that is when my mind starts to think about sad things. Well, I always end up crying for no reasons. However, I stop doing those things for few weeks. It is because I learned few things in one talk.  Our mind is like a baby. We have to take care it very gently. Be kind. Be loving. This is what I do: listen to songs that give positive energy.  dance around my house.  read books (mostly self -motivation books)  hang out with my friends randomly call any of my friends and talk to them for hours bake cakes clean my house  write a story ( letting go my feelings in a diary)  shoppi...

It is my second session in the campaign "living in mindfulness". They teach about living mindfully. I almost slept off. Cause it was really relaxing. And I am doing my deep breathing every day. Why it's important to breathe mindfully? Here are the reasons: 1. Your cells need constant oxygen in your body and you need to breathe deeply. Oxygen can deliver to all the cells.  2. Look at the baby. Baby breathe through their stomach. They breathe very slowly and deeply.  3. As the time pass by we forget to breathe like the baby. We breathe very fast. We get stress and forgot to breathe deeply. It affects our health if we didn't breathe deeply and mindfully.  This technique is really helpful for me to be aware of my well being. My body. So breath deeply. I love this campaign cause it teaches me to do everything slowly and carefully. I learned to breath mindfully nowadays. I enjoy my own accompany. I used depending on the outside things to make me ha...

My story is very ordinary. I look normal from outside. But if you look me longer you will see my flaws. It's quite noticeable. Yes, I feel weird with normal people around me. Even to type this was hard. My muscles move involuntarily. It is hard to control my muscles. I have been living with this condition for 15 years. For past two years, it becomes worse. There is no cure for this condition. It's called dystonia. I learned to manage it. Sometimes I almost give up, but never really. I almost died twice because of this condition but God bless nothing really happened. It's such a struggle to be in this body. The real struggle is when your body muscle never listens to you. My muscles can't be controlled. It moves crazily. Now, if you want to be my friend then let's have an amazing friendship. You can share your knowledge, insight with me. I want to grow too. I love to get inspired and motivated. The thing about people is that: - They judge me by my physical ...

Based on the title, I learned that everything is temporary. We cannot assume someone is going to be ours forever. They might lose their love and interest towards us while the time goes. They might feel that they are done with us. Thus, they move on leaving us behind. We might think it's our fault but it's not. If they leave then it's not our fault. Let them go. We can't hold them back. We can try to keep them, but it won't last. Love and respect won't be the same. We must be prepared for this separation. I know it going to hurt so bad but we must survive this. It's really nasty feelings. Feelings will make us ridiculous. Just be prepared for the worst. Everyone CHANGE. THEY change!! We human grow every day, change every day. We can't see the change until someone says to us. By this phenomena, I say everyone change. We cannot except anything from anyone. Moral of the story: Learn to love yourself ❤ Spent time with yourself. Any activiti...

Carrot side dish + egg Things that you need: 1 -2 carrots - cut using the carrot cutter, it should be long & thin 2 - 3 eggs 1 Green chilli  1 onion  Garlic and ginger - blend/ hit it together  Your preference: Little pepper Little Turmeric powder  Salt Steps 1. Pour little oil in the pan.  2. Put ginger, garlic, green chili, onions.  3. Then fry the egg. Mix it.  4. Pour little water. The egg will become very small . 5. Next put carrot.  6. During it is half fried, put pepper, turmeric powder and salt.  7. Then off the fire. Close the pan. Wait for 2-3 minutes.  8. It's ready.  You can add water f it is too dry.  Carrot mixed with egg. 

Living with dystonia and epilepsy is not easy. Let me talk about when all this started. I was normal child till I was 6 years old. My first synonym for dystonia was when my right hand started to shake involuntarily and I can't hold anything. I remember I was holding a cup and my hand shakes involuntarily and it dropped. As a child, I was scared and shocked and I wonder why my hand shakes without my instructions. But I didn't give up. I tried thousand times to hold a cup ( until now I really can't hold a cup properly but this time it never drops) and I would finally hold the cup. I can hold the cup but all the liquid inside will pour. And the solution for holding a cup is to have a water bottle . It is easier to hold and drink. I had a problem with writing too. I wouldn't write normally. My hand shakes so I will always find a way to write. I had various style of writing. I bend my entire book, used two hands to write, and SO MANY DIFFERENT ways. It will...