Nisshaa's Life

Behind the picture. It took great strength and effort to fight against my body and mind. I had re-learn to walk from the beginning. ▪ So many people are involved to gain back my health and to walk. I'm lucky to have beautiful people with me. My parents who literally tried everything to help me to relief the pain I have on my left shoulder. I can be so emotional thinking how much everyone helped me to walk. ▪ We tried from acupuncture, physiotherapy, chiropractic, Ayurvedic massage, Botox and etc for past three weeks. I guess everything helped me to walk. I'm overwhelmed by everyone. ▪ My best friend who trained me to walk. I fall million times and with enormous patience, we did it. Every afternoon I go to park with my parents, sisters and friends to walk. Trust me the pain on my left shoulder  I can't explain the pain. ▪ However, I overcome it. God bless. I'm so thankful for everything. Everyone shown their unconditional love and I can't thank enough. ...

Stop reading! Just stop. Breathe deeply first. Look at you. Now, slowly breath in and out and read it. It been traumatic, harrowing and aching week. Travelling long journey in car effected my body tremendously. Travelling long hours without stretching my legs, arms and body given fearsome experience. I had tons of fun during Diwali and I treasure every moment of it. Unfortunately, everything ends when I can’t walk and sit at all! The pain was unimaginable and I thought that was my last moment. My dystonia become severe. I would not manage it. I had to constantly fight. I almost give up. I know I have to fight my pain. When I didn’t know how to get rid of my pain, my family, friends stood up. I was bedridden for three days. Yes, I could not believe too. I really have to thank my family (From my parents, grandparents, uncle, aunt, cousins, friends, EVERYONE) They did everything to make me feel better. Until now I am depending on them. Had to. There is a constant battle and war ...

A reminder. You gotta wake up and do things. Sometimes we can be so lazy, never do anything and expecting something bigger. Right things won't happen to us if we don't do right things. *Short Story* I'm a slow learner. I easily forgot things. I had to repeat so many times to remember. I keep practicing until I remember. Furthermore, my medication always makes me sleepy and tired. I need to rest all the time. Sometimes I don't take my medicine cause of feeling dizzy.. I have a bad habit. I can never go bed early. It's because I always finish my work on time. I usually go to bed at 12am. I don't like to delay my work. I like to finish my work on time. I keep a reminder in my phone and on wall everyday so I know what to do. Practice. Practice. Practice. Don't be shy or embarrassed to do anything. It's your life and you need to kick ass. You just need to get up and work. That's how you will achieve your dreams. Nobody going to do it for you. You nee...

Searching for a job is not easy. There are so many rules and conditions to get a job. To get a job for me is a nightmare. I can't be a promoter cause I can't stand too long and I will have a backache. I was rejected because of my health condition. Well, I'm so glad that my dad never gives up on searching for a job for me. His spirit is way higher than me. We both walk office after office under the hot sun. The skin was turning into a darker shade.  But my dad never gives up. I actually can just stay at home and do nothing but I'm not the type who can sit home and do nothing. I love to do something and my dad understand that. The job that I enjoy doing is teaching. I love teaching. I can stand for hours while I'm teaching. Maybe because I love to present myself in front of many little humans. To those who don't have a job, don't worry find until you get your favorite job. Don't panic, you still got time. It's okay to be late than never. T...

Believing yourself is the key to success. Loving yourself is the key. Many people never accept themselves for who they are. It is difficult to accept. We want something better than this. We want what the others have. But rarely we have never been happy with what we have. It's okay to want more... It's healthy to ask for more after you accept yourself. This is what I learned after surviving the pain that my body gave me. The pain is incredible. No words to explain that pain. I wished to be a normal girl who can walk, write or eat normally. But I realized can't push my body too hard. I accepted myself. I learned to be happy with my body. I appreciate my body for allowing to complete my goals. Even though I struggled, I able to complete it. Believing myself was the best gift I can give for myself. I'm a very quiet person. Cause when I talk my body start moving involuntarily. So I don't talk much. However, I break that myth I created. It was difficult at first but the ...

Support. I need support everywhere I go. I always need a wall, a chair, or a person to support me while walking, standing or even sitting. I know this might sound crazy but that's the truth. Some people might think why I'm always holding my friend's hand. Well, this is the reason. I can walk alone without any support. However, there is a very high risk of falling and having terrible back pain. My bones are so fragile (sometimes it moves and I had to wait until it relocates back) and I need to be very careful. I always have the back pain cause I'm moving involuntarily. There were times my hand cramp because of involuntarily movement. Cramp is terrible pain.  Once my hand cramped during the exam and I just collapsed on the floor. It was so painful. My parents had to rush from work to bring me to the hospital on that day. It was a tiring day for them. I'm glad they always there for me. I'm always surrounded by people who care about me. I'm never used t...

Alone. That word effects most people. Even me. It was a great war inside me. I would not accept that I'm alone in my life. But it was the bitter sweet truth. Here is the difference between aloneness and loneliness.  . Loneliness is feeling lack, feeling of missing something, a pain, a depression, a need, an incompleteness, an absence. . Aloneness is feeling fullness, presence, aliveness, a joy of being, overflowing love. Nobody is needed, you are enough. . When I get to know the difference between these words, something hit me so badly. Aloneness means being complete with myself. And I didn't know that for a long time. . *Flashback* I used to be alone at my secondary school. Eat alone, study alone. I don't know why even I was alone but yeah. I used to cry because I have no friends at school. But I didn't know that I'm actually happy and complete with myself. Being a teenager is difficult. Can't think wisely.  . . Then when I entered universit...

Hello everyone, you must be wondering why did I even start writing. Well, the answer is my doctor. She is my favorite doctor, Dr. Tim. She always encourages me to things that I never thought off doing. Yes, I love writing and she asked me to share my story through writing. I always have messy, wondering mind. My mind is really a monster. When I say don't think of sad things that is when my mind starts to think about sad things. Well, I always end up crying for no reasons. However, I stop doing those things for few weeks. It is because I learned few things in one talk.  Our mind is like a baby. We have to take care it very gently. Be kind. Be loving. This is what I do: listen to songs that give positive energy.  dance around my house.  read books (mostly self -motivation books)  hang out with my friends randomly call any of my friends and talk to them for hours bake cakes clean my house  write a story ( letting go my feelings in a diary)  shoppi...

It is my second session in the campaign "living in mindfulness". They teach about living mindfully. I almost slept off. Cause it was really relaxing. And I am doing my deep breathing every day. Why it's important to breathe mindfully? Here are the reasons: 1. Your cells need constant oxygen in your body and you need to breathe deeply. Oxygen can deliver to all the cells.  2. Look at the baby. Baby breathe through their stomach. They breathe very slowly and deeply.  3. As the time pass by we forget to breathe like the baby. We breathe very fast. We get stress and forgot to breathe deeply. It affects our health if we didn't breathe deeply and mindfully.  This technique is really helpful for me to be aware of my well being. My body. So breath deeply. I love this campaign cause it teaches me to do everything slowly and carefully. I learned to breath mindfully nowadays. I enjoy my own accompany. I used depending on the outside things to make me ha...

My story is very ordinary. I look normal from outside. But if you look me longer you will see my flaws. It's quite noticeable. Yes, I feel weird with normal people around me. Even to type this was hard. My muscles move involuntarily. It is hard to control my muscles. I have been living with this condition for 15 years. For past two years, it becomes worse. There is no cure for this condition. It's called dystonia. I learned to manage it. Sometimes I almost give up, but never really. I almost died twice because of this condition but God bless nothing really happened. It's such a struggle to be in this body. The real struggle is when your body muscle never listens to you. My muscles can't be controlled. It moves crazily. Now, if you want to be my friend then let's have an amazing friendship. You can share your knowledge, insight with me. I want to grow too. I love to get inspired and motivated. The thing about people is that: - They judge me by my physical ...

Based on the title, I learned that everything is temporary. We cannot assume someone is going to be ours forever. They might lose their love and interest towards us while the time goes. They might feel that they are done with us. Thus, they move on leaving us behind. We might think it's our fault but it's not. If they leave then it's not our fault. Let them go. We can't hold them back. We can try to keep them, but it won't last. Love and respect won't be the same. We must be prepared for this separation. I know it going to hurt so bad but we must survive this. It's really nasty feelings. Feelings will make us ridiculous. Just be prepared for the worst. Everyone CHANGE. THEY change!! We human grow every day, change every day. We can't see the change until someone says to us. By this phenomena, I say everyone change. We cannot except anything from anyone. Moral of the story: Learn to love yourself ❤ Spent time with yourself. Any activiti...

Carrot side dish + egg Things that you need: 1 -2 carrots - cut using the carrot cutter, it should be long & thin 2 - 3 eggs 1 Green chilli  1 onion  Garlic and ginger - blend/ hit it together  Your preference: Little pepper Little Turmeric powder  Salt Steps 1. Pour little oil in the pan.  2. Put ginger, garlic, green chili, onions.  3. Then fry the egg. Mix it.  4. Pour little water. The egg will become very small . 5. Next put carrot.  6. During it is half fried, put pepper, turmeric powder and salt.  7. Then off the fire. Close the pan. Wait for 2-3 minutes.  8. It's ready.  You can add water f it is too dry.  Carrot mixed with egg.